Four Silly Little Words

we cant be together…
who knew four little silly words
could scare and devastate me so much
make me feel so afraid of feeling
they were just words in of themselves
Not threatening separately and in other contexts
but coming from the one man I have loved
from the moment we first kissed
from the man I have given my everything to
from the man that will forever
have a piece of my heart if not the whole thing
from this man
it sent a shock though me
even knowing
that he really didn’t mean it
in the way I had immediately, reflexively taken it as
It felt like it took a little bit more work to keep on breathing
Feeling so alone, so vulnerable
Knowing how disposable I truly was
trying to focus on the next breath, I needed to breathe
Trying not to re-live the emotions of that day
The absoluteness of losing the man
I had thought would never, ever leave me
Four silly little words
Four silly little words


(c) Bonnie B