Don't

So many lies, so many ties
Trying to make you see
that there's much more to me
getting in over my head, fast

I just wanna have fun
I just wanna be me
why am I doing this
Its suffocating me

Don't tell me you love me
Don't tell me you care
Don't tell me you want me
Don't tell me you dare
Don't wanna hear it anymore
Don't wanna hear those lies
Im not gonna make the same mistakes
I'm not that little girl anymore
I won't be that girl...

wrong. Right. Black and white.
why dose my world look gray
with no right answers
and no right turns

giving up is not option
but I don't know what to do
Giving up is not an option
but I still want to...

Don't tell me you love me
Don't tell me you care
Don't tell me you want me
Don't tell me you dare
Don't wanna hear it anymore
Don't wanna hear those lies
Im not gonna make the same mistakes
I'm not that little girl anymore
I won't be that wh0re...


DON'T TELL ME. Just... don't

All I Know

Every time I try and hold back these tears
it seems that all that's left are my fears
this smile, stapled on hurts me
hurting me, like nothing else can, can't you see?

Pounding in my ears, flowing through my veins
Music, seems to drown out all of my hidden pains
But I can still hear it, the screaming that separates me
My head hurts, and still no one can see

Step back, look around
change is what I need
Re-shape what is me
But what will be the fee?

I have no Answers, No view
All I know is, my life is askew
There will be no surrender
Cause I'm no pretender
And I won't watch my world crumble
Just because I stumbled
I have no answers, No View
All I know is, this is an issue

afraid to close my eyes, to seep, to dream
It's another day lost another day forgotten
I'm on breakdown mode but I've put it on pause
My Life can't be so much of a lost cause

Too many lessons I've forgotten to learn
Every word you say to me seems to burn
My stomach is in knots, that never come undone
But this fight is far from done

Step back, look around
change is what I need
Re-shape what is me
But what will be the fee?

I have no Answers, No view
All I know is, my life is askew
There will be no surrender
Cause I'm no pretender
And I won't watch my world crumble
Just because I stumbled
I have no answers, No View
All I know is, this is an issue

Yeah I know I still have lots to lose, to learn
I'm gonna close my eyes and hope
Hope That It'll all be Okay

I have no Answers, No view
All I know is, my life is askew
There will be no surrender
Cause I'm no pretender
And I won't watch my world crumble
Just because I stumbled
I have no answers, No View
All I know is, this is an issue

This IS an Issue.








(c) Bonnie B.

Mirror, Mirror

None of these Thoughts are real
So why is it all So messed up
my mind is on a roll, it's not listening
my world keeps getting twisted
I have to

stop my mind working overtime
driving me insane with fear
It's becoming my worst enemy
One minute I am fine
The next I've lost my mind

Mirror mirror on the wall
Who's the dumbest of them all
getting all caught up in my own lies
my life is not a fairytale to make
hurting myself with every twist, every stake
Mirror mirror on the wall
Who's the fakest of the all

Insecurities keep on growing
Pain, Sadness and anger calling
Panic sets in
wanting to give in
To make this story worth reading

screaming to make the sound of pain fade
laughing to make it look all ok
You think I've got it
I'll write it in
lies upon lies

Mirror mirror on the wall
Who's the dumbest of them all
getting all caught up in my own lies
my life is not a fairytale to make
hurting myself with every twist, every stake
Mirror mirror on the wall
Who's the fakest of the all

Mirror mirror on the wall...







(c) Bonnie B.

The breaking of a broken heart

Why do I cry
cry to the heavens
thought I think no one hears
why dose it hurt
when the result would have been the same
The breaking of a broken heart
the tearing of the torn
every tear I cry
every word I scream
I cant seem to get away from it all
d@mmit you broke me
after taking what I gave you
now I'm left with contempt for myself
I'm left behind once again
The breaking of a broken heart
the tearing of the torn
mistakes made not once but twice
are like a vice
and it'll never let me go
never let be be what I was to be
The breaking of a broken heart
the tearing of the torn




(c) Bonnie B.